Silence

She sings and she dances and she laughs.
She grins and she nudges and she pokes.
She tells as many jokes as possible and creates smiles wherever she goes.

She likes people.
Good, bad, and insane.
Simply because they respond.

And when they stop,
She finds more.

She sounds the happiest, moves the most energetic, and she smiles the most cheerful.
She makes friends, fills up jars with faces and names and numbers.
She works for words and voices, puts in ridiculous effort to bait so many lures.

She uses people.
Good, bad, and insane.
Simply because they speak.

And when they stop,
She cries.

Silence is powerful. There is strength in silence. There is beauty too. However, it also brings fear. For in quiet, we are forced to listen to our thoughts and face our mental monsters.

Thought Process Of A Returning College Student On Their First Day of The New Semester (Literally.)

Ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh, why didn’t I wake up earlier??? If my feet don’t move any faster, I am going to miss all of it! ALL OF IT!

Why did I sign up for an early class again????!

I’m going to be so late. So so so so late. Late. Late. LATE. Wait… was that? Who the freak thought it was a good idea to sell smoothies so damn early in the morning?! It’s like the arctic now?! Who is buying them?!

Ooooh…hold on. Strawberries? STRAWBERRIES. And bananas? Oh that sounds so good right now…

Wait. NO. Late, I’m going to be late!

Weeeeelllllll, I’m already late actually. Doesn’t hurt…and…I like smoothies….

Ohhh this is sooo good!!!! I think I should get a smoothie every morning! DELICIOUS. Oh wait, what time is it again?

HOLY CRAP. I’M DOOMED!

Run, run, run, run, run, run, run, ruuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnn!

Don’t stare at me like I’m crazy! YOU ARE CRAZY.

Ruuuuuuun!

YES! I made it!!!!

Oh…there’s one seat in the back….the very back…WAAAY in the back…

Excuse me, excuse me, excuse me, sorry,  MOVE YOUR DAMN BAG!

There! Made it!

Wait… what syllabus?

Oh well.. I’ll just grab it after class. It’s too bothersome to grab it now.

I’ll just glance to my left…

YOU DON’T HAVE IT EITHER?!

The right…

YOU TOO?!

Oh wait..it’s on the wall.. yay for projectors. Hmm…hmmm…hmmm….MAKE THE TEXT BIGGER, WOMAN!

I give up. I’ll just remember what you say.. hopefully.

Hmm..hmm…hm…I’m lonely…

Friends? Anyone? Ooooh how about you! oh..no..I see…well you looked like a bitch anyways.

Bored….bored…bored…waaay too easy..bored..bored…WAIT THE TEXTBOOK COSTS THAT MUCH?! Why?!

Sad…broke…lonely…bored…tired…too early in the damn morning…why…I’m just going to put my head down…for a second..bored..bored..bored…bored…zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

WHY DON’T PEOPLE TELL YOU WHEN CLASS IS OVER?! YOU COULD AT LEAST TAP MY SHOULDER ON YOUR WAY OUT! ASSHOLES!

When’s my next class again?

Oh…well, time for lunch then!!!

lalalalalalalalallalalalalalalalal WAIT THEY ARE CLOSED?! IT’S NOT TO EARLY FOR LUNCH DAMN IT!

Fine. I’ll be back. And y’all better be open.

Chair..chair..chair..ooooh open chair! Mine! Wai-NO you bastard, that’s MINE!!!!!! Hah! Yeah, that’s right, walk away like the coward you are! NO! Don’t turn back!!!! Sorry!!!

Haaahhhh…peace at last…laptoppppp laaaaptopppp…I looove youuuu! ooooh full battery, yes!!! hmmm…how about some tv shows..yeah.. relax time..hmm…

WELL! It’s definitely lunch time now!! Excuse me, excuse, excuse me, MOVE OUT OF THE WAY! Ooooh yes! My favorite!!

Hmm…hmm…yuuuum…yes gimme! Lalalalalalala…wait it’s how much?!! Why did I buy that smoothie???????? Argh!!!! Uhhhh I have enough, I swear! It’s somewhere..I have extra somewhere…ooooh let’s see..uhhh..nooo..not in that pocket, hmm..maybe this one..well maybe oh here it is! There ya go!

Fooooood! Table, table, table, table, oooh that one’s open! I’m going to sit..OH, NO YOU CAN HAVE IT THAT’S FINE. I TOTALLY WASN’T GOING TO SIT THERE. I’LL JUST WALK OVER THERE AND SIT NEAR THE TRASHCAN. HOW ABOUT THAT?!

Oh! you wanna share???? HIIIII! What’s your name?? Your major? No I’m a sophomore. 19. 20 in October. Yes, I’m a sophomore….sophomore..I’M A SOPHOMORE DAMNIT.

Wait. Where are you going? Waaaaiiiit! I want to be friends!!!

You didn’t even ask for my name….

I swear I’m friendly…just talk to me…ANYONE?!

IT’S YOU!!!! OMG YESH PLEASE SIT DOWN! HOW HAS LIFE BEEEN???????!!!!!!!

Crap!!! I’m going to be late! Nononononono why did he talk so much?! Bluuuurgh why does time go by soo fast?! Hurrrrry hurrry hurrry out of my way!!! Oooh yes! made it!

And that is my seat. Right there. THAT IS MINE! Whew, sitting down..sitting….syllabus..what syllabus? Oh damn it all! No! I’m not getting up! I’ll get it after class.

OMG, I’m like sooo bored…when’s my next class…hmm…maybe I’ll just nap here… yeah…it’s comfy…

Ack! I really fell asleep! OH NO! My next class!!! Where is it?!!!! Oh nonononononononononononononononono….Oh wait, it’s the next building over. Wheeeew! Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up feet, move move move move….

YES! First one here!!

..OH NO, FIRST ONE HERE. NOW I LOOK LIKE A DORK. GAAAH!

People!!! HIIIII, sit next to me! Oh…okay..yeah, I’d sit next to the window too..hey you! you look friendly, sit here? oh…okay..that’s cool..How about you?????!…

HIIII! Thank you for sitting next to me! No, don’t be creeped out by my smile, I’m just super happy! How are you?! Ooooh you smell nice!!! Move closer please! Mmmmmm..

nah, it’s cool…let the class out AN HOUR AND A HALF EARLY?!

Now what am I supposed to do… I’ve got soooo much time till my next class… it’s dark though…so no sleeping! NO SLEEPING!

Oooh laptop! right, videos! movies!

Hm… it’s been awhile since I’ve been on my blog…let’s check that out first!

HAPPY NEW YEARS, EVERYONE!

That is all.

Christmas Wishlist Item #2

A silver iPod Classic 160 gb.

I already have one so technically I don’t need a new one… however I really want one right now because Appple no longer makes them.

Yeah, thanks to everyone going for the new stuff, Apple stopped making any more classics. Which really is retarded in my opinion, since the classic is soooooooo much better than the iPod touch!

I love listening to music, quite frankly I’m addicted so my iPod is my lifeline. Without it, I’d go crazy. So if anything were to happen to my current iPod, I would have to get a replacement immediately. Except, by then, there might not be any more left. Classics that is.

So I need a new one that I can keep on reserve.

Yes I know it’s selfish arghhhhhhh!

Christmas Wishlist Item #1

This is the first of the many to come items on my Christmas wishlist this year. Instead of writing to Santa about what I want, I’ll be blogging them in hopes that the chubby man will somehow read them whilst netsurfing for great deals on plastic toys for the good kiddies around the world. (Hehehehehehe!)

Anyway, my first wish is: MANGA.

I want lots of manga books, however I’m categorizing them into one single ‘item’ on my item list; because if I didn’t, I’d never move on to the other non-manga things I want.

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Yes my room is green....hehe

This is my current manga collection size, minus the bottom shelf which is full of exactly what it looks like: Goosebumps books. (Yes, I was/oddly still am a fan. And I kind of still collect them…)

Currently, I have many more on order, waiting for the phone call to tell me to come pick em up at B&N, but I want more.. selfish as that is.. Those shelves in the picture are lacking in my opinion. They are too empty.

Of course, I have plenty downloaded manga on my tablet and phone, but nothing beats a physical copy of them. Nothing beats having the books. Plus, I like showing my appreciation to the author by paying for them when I can.

So that is why, I am making this plea to Santa. Get me manga!

Here’s a small list of some of the ones I’m currently wanting:
– Oresama Teacher Vol. 18 (coming out in March, sooo…not likely to get by Christmas but it’s still getting listed here!)
– Blue Exorcist Vols. 9+
– The Magic Touch Vols. 4+
– Voice Over: Seiyuu Academy Vols. 1+
– Dramacon Vol. 2 and 3
– Skip Beat! (EVERY SINGLE ONE, BECAUSE I HAVE YET TO BUY ONE VOLUME :D)
– Black Butler Vol 19 (Coming out in January so…same as Oresama Teacher)

And bunches more!

Brain Wars

So I started playing the app Brain Wars yesterday and I’ve managed to get to the rank Dog. (I CAN’T WAIT TO REACH PENGUIN!)

Anyway, I was wondering if anyone would like to play against me?

It’s a very fun game, kind of frustrating sometimes but oh well.

So, if anyone is interested here’s my user code: BBX21031

Just type that in on the add friend slot, and we’ll be good to go :D

Like, Who Would Win?

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I’d have so much fun watching that.

But, seriously.

Ramsey all the way.

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