Out of Spite

Spite: a desire to hurt, annoy, or offend someone.

A lot of the things I do and most of the mistakes I’ve made and am going to make are done out of spite.

I guess I’m just a spiteful person.

I get delight from accomplishing things despite being told not to or that I couldn’t do. I recieve enjoyment from annoying other individuals but at the same time I don’t actively seek to hurt others..intentionally. I dont want to offend, I prefer to annoy, and yet if someone does get offended in the process, rarely am I bothered.

Maybe it’s because I’m wired a different way or maybe it’s because of the way I grew up. More so, I believe its just the way I am.

Do I want to change?

That’s a very hard question to answer. I love the person I am, every bit and piece of me. I love me. And I’d rather not change any part of me. But, at the same time I recognize that being spiteful is not a great quality to contribute and help society, as well as it can a cause a decrease in the quantity of friends I have.

So now if I do choose to change, which would it be for?

Would I change me because it’s what everyone prefers and wants?
Or would I change because I want to be nice to those around me?

Hmmm…

“Do I contradict myself? Very well,
then, I contradict myself; I am
large — I contain multitudes.”

― Walt Whitman

“You’re always you, and that don’t
change, and you’re always
changing, and there’s nothing you
can do about it.”

― Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book

Yeah… I’ll start by taking the spite level down a little.

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Posted on October 9, 2013, in Miko's Corner, My Blog and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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